Sab bolte hain main mature hoon, par sach mein main sirf thak gayi hoon. Mujhe dream job mil gayi, phir bhi dil bilkul khali lag raha hai. Mere parents mujh par itna trust karte hain. Agar unhe sach pata chale toh sab toot jayega. Jo relationship chahiye tha woh mil gaya, par sukoon fir bhi nahi mila. Nayi jagah aake socha tha sab theek ho jayega, par darr saath hi aa gaya. Main har kisi ko bolti hoon ki sab theek hai, par andar se bilkul theek nahi hoon. Ye pehli baar hai jo main itna khulke bol rahi hoon.
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Hu badhane kahu chhu ke hu fine chhu, pan sach ma hu fine nathi. Mane mari dream job mali gayi, pan andar thi khali khali lage chhe. Ghana loko vachche hoy pan pan eklaapan bahu lage chhe. Mara parents mane khub trust kare chhe. Ene sach khabar pade toh badhu tootse. Hu 23F chhu. Badhane lage chhe ke hu strong chhu, pan hu roj ratre chupchaap rdu chhu. Bahar thi life sorted dekhay chhe, pan andar ghano pressure chhe. Aa ghana divas thi andar hatu.
Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Njan 29F. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Enikku dream job kitti, pakshe manassu innum valare shunyam aanu. Ithokke njan aadyamayittu aanu ithra open ayi parayunnathu.
Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Mi 33F aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mi he pahilyandach itka open boltey.
Ja relationship chai chilam seta peyechi, tao mone shanti nei. Baire theke amar life sorted mone hoy, kintu bhitore onek jhamela cholche. Onno der moddhe thakleo khub eka lage. Amar dream job peyechi, tao mone hoy bhitor ta puro khali. Amar parents amar opor onek trust kore. Ora jodi sotti ta jane, sob bhenge jabe. Ami 26F. Sobai bhabe ami khub strong, kintu prottek raat e chupchap kandi. Ektu mon halka kortei ekhane likhlam.
Nanna parents nan mele tumba trust ide. Nijana gothadre ellavu muriyutte. Janara madhye iddaru kooda nanu tumba lonely anisutte. Naanu 29F. Yellarigu naanu strong anisutte, aadre prati ratri nanu mounavagi althini. Horage nodidre life perfect anisutte, olage tumba pressure ide. Nanage dream job sikthu, aadru manasu innoo empty anisutte. Yellaroo nanu mature antare, aadre nanu kevala sustaagiddini. Idanna modala sala ivattu open aagi helthidini.
Meri life bahar se sorted lagti hai, par andar bahut noise chal raha hai. Itne logon ke beech rehkar bhi main akeli feel karti hoon. Main 21F hoon, sabko lagta hai main strong hoon, par raat ko chupke ro leti hoon. Sab bolte hain main mature hoon, par sach mein main sirf thak gayi hoon. Samajh nahi aa raha kyun post kar rahi hoon, par karna zaroori laga.
Pudhu city ku vandha apram life improve aagum nu nenachen, aana same fears dhan vandhuduchu. En parents en mela romba trust vachirukkaanga. Unmai therinja ellam odanjidum. Naan venumna relationship kidaichiduchu, aana peace mattum varala. Naan ellarkittayum nalla irukken nu solren, aana nijama naan nalla illa. Ellarum naan mature nu solraanga, aana naan just romba tired. Velila paatha en life perfect madhiri theriyum, aana ullae romba chaos irukku. Ithu romba naala ullae irundhudhu.
Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Aalukalude idayil irunnalum njan valare lonely aanu. Njan 18F. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Ithokke njan aadyamayittu aanu ithra open ayi parayunnathu.
I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am 34F, everyone thinks I am strong, but I cry every night after acting normal all day. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.
I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am 34F, everyone thinks I am strong, but I cry every night after acting normal all day. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.