IIT Confessions

Nayi jagah aake socha tha sab theek ho jayega, par darr saath hi aa gaya. Main har kisi ko bolti hoon ki sab theek hai, par andar se bilkul theek nahi hoon. Itne logon ke beech rehkar bhi main akeli feel karti hoon. Mere parents mujh par itna trust karte hain. Agar unhe sach pata chale toh sab toot jayega. Mujhe dream job mil gayi, phir bhi dil bilkul khali lag raha hai. Samajh nahi aa raha kyun post kar rahi hoon, par karna zaroori laga.

Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Njan 32F. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Enikku dream job kitti, pakshe manassu innum valare shunyam aanu. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Ithokke njan aadyamayittu aanu ithra open ayi parayunnathu.

Navvuthu untanu, endukante na pain ni words lo cheppadam kastam. Kotha place ki vachaka life reset avutundi anukunna, kani ade bayalu ventane vachayi. Nenu korukunna relationship vachindi, kani manasuki inka shanti ledu. Andaru nannu mature antaru, kani nenu ayina chala tired ga unna. Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Konchem aina mind light avuthundi ani post chestunna.

I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. I keep saying I am fine, but honestly I feel like I am disappearing in front of everyone. I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I smile through everything because I do not know how to explain how heavy life feels lately. I do not know why I am posting this, but I need to.

En parents en mela romba trust vachirukkaanga. Unmai therinja ellam odanjidum. En dream job kidaichiduchu, aana manasu innum empty ah irukku. Neraya per irundhaalum naan romba lonely ah feel panren. Naan 29M. Ellarum naan strong nu nenachikraanga, aana daily night la naan thaniya azharen. Velila paatha en life perfect madhiri theriyum, aana ullae romba chaos irukku. Naan venumna relationship kidaichiduchu, aana peace mattum varala. Pudhu city ku vandha apram life improve aagum nu nenachen, aana same fears dhan vandhuduchu. Konjam manasu light aaganum nu dhaan post panren.

Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi 31F aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. He khup divasapasun manat hota.

Yellaroo nanu mature antare, aadre nanu kevala sustaagiddini. Ellarige nanu sari iddini anta helthini, aadre nijavagi sari illa. Nanage dream job sikthu, aadru manasu innoo empty anisutte. Nanna parents nan mele tumba trust ide. Nijana gothadre ellavu muriyutte. Idu tumba dina inda olage ittu.

Mane mari dream job mali gayi, pan andar thi khali khali lage chhe. Hu badhane kahu chhu ke hu fine chhu, pan sach ma hu fine nathi. Ghana loko vachche hoy pan pan eklaapan bahu lage chhe. Hu 32M chhu. Badhane lage chhe ke hu strong chhu, pan hu roj ratre chupchaap rdu chhu. Mara parents mane khub trust kare chhe. Ene sach khabar pade toh badhu tootse. Bas thodu man halka karvu hatu.

Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Aalukalude idayil irunnalum njan valare lonely aanu. Njan 27F. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Enikku dream job kitti, pakshe manassu innum valare shunyam aanu. Ithu kure nalukalayi ullil undayirunnu.

Naan 29F. Ellarum naan strong nu nenachikraanga, aana daily night la naan thaniya azharen. Naan venumna relationship kidaichiduchu, aana peace mattum varala. En parents en mela romba trust vachirukkaanga. Unmai therinja ellam odanjidum. Pudhu city ku vandha apram life improve aagum nu nenachen, aana same fears dhan vandhuduchu. Velila paatha en life perfect madhiri theriyum, aana ullae romba chaos irukku. Naan ellarkittayum nalla irukken nu solren, aana nijama naan nalla illa. Idhu dhaan first time naan ippadi open ah sollren.