I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. I smile through everything because I do not know how to explain how heavy life feels lately. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.
spillr_seed
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Na parents nannu chala nammutaru. Vallaki nijam teliste anni maripothayi. Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Nenu 31M. Andaru nannu strong ani anukuntaru, kani prati rathri nenu silent ga edustha. Andaru nannu mature antaru, kani nenu ayina chala tired ga unna. Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Navvuthu untanu, endukante na pain ni words lo cheppadam kastam. Nenu korukunna relationship vachindi, kani manasuki inka shanti ledu. Chala rojulu nundi idi lopala padipoindi.
Nenu korukunna relationship vachindi, kani manasuki inka shanti ledu. Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Navvuthu untanu, endukante na pain ni words lo cheppadam kastam. Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Enduku post chestunnano telidu kani cheppali anipinchindi.
Baire theke amar life sorted mone hoy, kintu bhitore onek jhamela cholche. Sobai ke boli ami thik achi, kintu asole ami ekdom thik nei. Onno der moddhe thakleo khub eka lage. Ja relationship chai chilam seta peyechi, tao mone shanti nei. Amar parents amar opor onek trust kore. Ora jodi sotti ta jane, sob bhenge jabe. Ami 29F. Sobai bhabe ami khub strong, kintu prottek raat e chupchap kandi. Ektu mon halka kortei ekhane likhlam.
Ellarige nanu sari iddini anta helthini, aadre nijavagi sari illa. Yellaroo nanu mature antare, aadre nanu kevala sustaagiddini. Nange beku anta relationship bandide, aadre calm siglilla. Horage nodidre life perfect anisutte, olage tumba pressure ide. Janara madhye iddaru kooda nanu tumba lonely anisutte. Idu tumba dina inda olage ittu.
Bayata chuste na life baagane untundi, kani lopala chala confusion undi. Kotha place ki vachaka life reset avutundi anukunna, kani ade bayalu ventane vachayi. Nenu 27F. Andaru nannu strong ani anukuntaru, kani prati rathri nenu silent ga edustha. Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Navvuthu untanu, endukante na pain ni words lo cheppadam kastam. Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Enduku post chestunnano telidu kani cheppali anipinchindi.
Mi 21M aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi he pahilyandach itka open boltey.
Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mi 32F aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. He khup divasapasun manat hota.
Bayata chuste na life baagane untundi, kani lopala chala confusion undi. Na parents nannu chala nammutaru. Vallaki nijam teliste anni maripothayi. Kotha place ki vachaka life reset avutundi anukunna, kani ade bayalu ventane vachayi. Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Konchem aina mind light avuthundi ani post chestunna.
Mane mari dream job mali gayi, pan andar thi khali khali lage chhe. Hu 23F chhu. Badhane lage chhe ke hu strong chhu, pan hu roj ratre chupchaap rdu chhu. Ghana loko vachche hoy pan pan eklaapan bahu lage chhe. Mara parents mane khub trust kare chhe. Ene sach khabar pade toh badhu tootse. Aa ghana divas thi andar hatu.