Dark Confessions

Enikku dream job kitti, pakshe manassu innum valare shunyam aanu. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Njan 34F. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Aalukalude idayil irunnalum njan valare lonely aanu. Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Ithu kure nalukalayi ullil undayirunnu.

Bayata chuste na life baagane untundi, kani lopala chala confusion undi. Andaru nannu mature antaru, kani nenu ayina chala tired ga unna. Nenu korukunna relationship vachindi, kani manasuki inka shanti ledu. Nenu 33M. Andaru nannu strong ani anukuntaru, kani prati rathri nenu silent ga edustha. Chala rojulu nundi idi lopala padipoindi.

Itne logon ke beech rehkar bhi main akeli feel karti hoon. Sab bolte hain main mature hoon, par sach mein main sirf thak gayi hoon. Mujhe dream job mil gayi, phir bhi dil bilkul khali lag raha hai. Jo relationship chahiye tha woh mil gaya, par sukoon fir bhi nahi mila. Mere parents mujh par itna trust karte hain. Agar unhe sach pata chale toh sab toot jayega. Main har kisi ko bolti hoon ki sab theek hai, par andar se bilkul theek nahi hoon. Samajh nahi aa raha kyun post kar rahi hoon, par karna zaroori laga.

Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mi 20M aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi he pahilyandach itka open boltey.

Jo relationship chahiye tha woh mil gaya, par sukoon fir bhi nahi mila. Main har kisi ko bolti hoon ki sab theek hai, par andar se bilkul theek nahi hoon. Itne logon ke beech rehkar bhi main akeli feel karti hoon. Main hass deti hoon taaki koi mere andar ka weight samajh na paaye. Sab bolte hain main mature hoon, par sach mein main sirf thak gayi hoon. Samajh nahi aa raha kyun post kar rahi hoon, par karna zaroori laga.

Ja relationship chai chilam seta peyechi, tao mone shanti nei. Amar parents amar opor onek trust kore. Ora jodi sotti ta jane, sob bhenge jabe. Onno der moddhe thakleo khub eka lage. Sobai ke boli ami thik achi, kintu asole ami ekdom thik nei. Baire theke amar life sorted mone hoy, kintu bhitore onek jhamela cholche. Ami 18F. Sobai bhabe ami khub strong, kintu prottek raat e chupchap kandi. Amar dream job peyechi, tao mone hoy bhitor ta puro khali. Ektu mon halka kortei ekhane likhlam.

Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. He khup divasapasun manat hota.

I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I am 21M, everyone thinks I am strong, but I cry every night after acting normal all day. I smile through everything because I do not know how to explain how heavy life feels lately. I do not know why I am posting this, but I need to.

Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Naaku dream job vachindi, kani enduko lopala empty ga anipistundi. Andaru nannu mature antaru, kani nenu ayina chala tired ga unna. Kotha place ki vachaka life reset avutundi anukunna, kani ade bayalu ventane vachayi. Idi first time nenu ila open ga cheptunna.

Yellaroo nanu mature antare, aadre nanu kevala sustaagiddini. Ellarige nanu sari iddini anta helthini, aadre nijavagi sari illa. Nange beku anta relationship bandide, aadre calm siglilla. Nanna parents nan mele tumba trust ide. Nijana gothadre ellavu muriyutte. Horage nodidre life perfect anisutte, olage tumba pressure ide. Idanna modala sala ivattu open aagi helthidini.