Corporate Secrets

I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. I smile through everything because I do not know how to explain how heavy life feels lately. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.

Mi 21M aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi he pahilyandach itka open boltey.

Chuttu chala mandi unna kuda nenu chala lonely ga feel avutunna. Andariki nenu bagunnanu ani cheptanu, kani nijanga nenu bagoledu. Bayata chuste na life baagane untundi, kani lopala chala confusion undi. Kotha place ki vachaka life reset avutundi anukunna, kani ade bayalu ventane vachayi. Naaku dream job vachindi, kani enduko lopala empty ga anipistundi. Nenu korukunna relationship vachindi, kani manasuki inka shanti ledu. Nenu 26F. Andaru nannu strong ani anukuntaru, kani prati rathri nenu silent ga edustha. Enduku post chestunnano telidu kani cheppali anipinchindi.

Njan 24M. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Enikku dream job kitti, pakshe manassu innum valare shunyam aanu. Ithu kure nalukalayi ullil undayirunnu.

Jo relationship chahiye tha woh mil gaya, par sukoon fir bhi nahi mila. Mujhe dream job mil gayi, phir bhi dil bilkul khali lag raha hai. Sab bolte hain main mature hoon, par sach mein main sirf thak gayi hoon. Mere parents mujh par itna trust karte hain. Agar unhe sach pata chale toh sab toot jayega. Nayi jagah aake socha tha sab theek ho jayega, par darr saath hi aa gaya. Main 33M hoon, sabko lagta hai main strong hoon, par raat ko chupke ro leti hoon. Main hass deti hoon taaki koi mere andar ka weight samajh na paaye. Kaafi dinon se yeh sab andar daba hua tha.

Lokanchya madhye asun hi mala khup ekta vatata. Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Mi 30M aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. He khup divasapasun manat hota.

Majhe parents majhyavar khup trust kartat. Tyanna kharach mahit zala tar sagla tutel. Baherun life perfect diste, pan aat khup pressure aahe. Mi 29M aahe. Saglyanna vatata mi strong aahe, pan mi roj raatri chupchap radata. Mi saglyanna mhante ki mi theek aahe, pan kharach mi theek nahi. Mala dream job milali, pan tari hi aat khup rikam vatata. Mi he pahilyandach itka open boltey.

Njan ellavarkkum njan ok aanu ennu parayum, pakshe njan sherikkum ok alla. Aalukalude idayil irunnalum njan valare lonely aanu. Ente parents enne valare trust cheyyunnu. Sathiyam arinjhal ellam pizhachupokum. Purathu kaanumbo life nannayi thonnam, ullil valiya struggle undu. Njan 31M. Ellavarum njan strong aanu ennu vicharikkunnu, pakshe njan rathriyil thanichu karayunnu. Njan agrahicha relationship kitti, pakshe samadhanam innum kittiyilla. Konjam manassu kurayum ennu vicharichu ivide ezhuthunnu.

Main hass deti hoon taaki koi mere andar ka weight samajh na paaye. Mujhe dream job mil gayi, phir bhi dil bilkul khali lag raha hai. Nayi jagah aake socha tha sab theek ho jayega, par darr saath hi aa gaya. Meri life bahar se sorted lagti hai, par andar bahut noise chal raha hai. Itne logon ke beech rehkar bhi main akeli feel karti hoon. Samajh nahi aa raha kyun post kar rahi hoon, par karna zaroori laga.

Horage nodidre life perfect anisutte, olage tumba pressure ide. Nanage dream job sikthu, aadru manasu innoo empty anisutte. Nanna parents nan mele tumba trust ide. Nijana gothadre ellavu muriyutte. Yellaroo nanu mature antare, aadre nanu kevala sustaagiddini. Naanu 30M. Yellarigu naanu strong anisutte, aadre prati ratri nanu mounavagi althini. Nange beku anta relationship bandide, aadre calm siglilla. Idanna modala sala ivattu open aagi helthidini.