I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I got the job I prayed for, but somehow I feel emptier than before. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. My parents trust me so much. If they knew the truth about my life right now, everything would break. This has been sitting in my chest for weeks.

I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I got the job I prayed for, but somehow I feel emptier than before. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. My parents trust me so much. If they knew the truth about my life right now, everything would break. This has been sitting in my chest for weeks.