I look happy in every photo, but I have not felt okay in months. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. I smile through everything because I do not know how to explain how heavy life feels lately. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I finally have the relationship I wanted, but my heart still feels restless and scared. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.