I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am 34F, everyone thinks I am strong, but I cry every night after acting normal all day. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.

I am surrounded by people every day and still feel painfully alone. Everyone calls me mature, but I am just tired and better at hiding my mess. I am 34F, everyone thinks I am strong, but I cry every night after acting normal all day. I moved to a new city to start over, but my old fears came with me. I am doing everything right on paper, but inside I feel completely lost. I wanted freedom so badly, and now that I have it, I do not know what to do with my life. Maybe writing this here will help me breathe.